Another sleepless night...

What is off about my sleep is that I actually do sleep super well (short but deep sleep) when I am not a little ball of anxiety. I go to bed, fall asleep in 5 mins and almost don't move until I wake up 7 hours later. But when anxiety kicks in... Oh Boy! Not able to shut down my brain. I try breathing and works for 6-7 breaths, but shortly after my mind takes off and I am not able to catch it!

Palpitations, tense jaw, head pressure, electric shocks... There we go, anxiety is in full blow! I get sooo brain tired! Please let me sleep!! And by now so stressed on how shitty the next day will be - I hope I can pull it off!

Just seems like an internal fight with no purpose! And I am not even sure who I am fighting with... If I really think: what am I worried about? I really don't know. There a few topics that bother me, but nothing that would deserve this kind of reaction...

When I feel better I always think that next time I  be able to control it better, but here you go... I have a racing head, a tired body and don't seem to be able to break the cycle!

But I will get there... One day!!

From a very stressed fofer